• 06:38 MANNHEIM STEAMROLLER COMING TO WENATCHEE DEC 17 #
• 07:12 monty buell's wife finally passed away... so so saddening. i can't even imagine. and this close to the holidays #
• 15:53 38 HOURS TILL I'M EN ROUTE TO PORTLAND... #
• 17:17 lady gaga singing about teeth and i love it. you win universe. #
• 17:33 @katrinjo just so we're together : / #

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• 07:21 woke up to snow! not a lot, but STILL #
• 08:07 looking into apartments. it's time #
• 10:39 @caithream YES YES WITH BELLS ON! #
• 10:47 @caithream :( "I'll find a way to save you." #
• 11:23 @caithream loves first time experiences. referring of course to SPN among other things... #
• 16:12 in LOVE with enya's christmas album. SERIOUSLY GOOD YOU GUYS. #
• 16:50 @caithream ummm, how did he get hired again? #

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• 06:48 @caithream need this album NOW #
• 08:02 off to an all day school board/faculty retreat. UGHGAAAAAG #

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• 12:51 first word out since last night: SHE CRIED LIKE A BABY... AND IT DIDN'T STOP. #
• 14:34 rocking to christmas music while cleaning the classroom... can't WAIT to put up our christmas tree after break #
• 16:40 Ohohoh... Samantha. <3 <3 <3 <3 #
• 20:48 sometimes i watch tv with the folks upstairs, and their favorite show NCIS. i forgot how bad bad tv really is. #

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• 05:37 SPACEPROMOSPACEPROMOSPACEPROMO... SHIT'S GONNA FLY!!! #findthecolt #
• 07:27 @caithream IT'S REALLY NOT BUT OMG OMG OMG... SERIOUSLY HEART IS DEEEEEEEAAAAAD. ALFKDJFADSFSDLKFSD11111!!!!!! #
• 18:00 and avoiding twitter starts NOW. OMGOMGOMGOMG #
• 19:23 5.11 promo already up?!!! GAAAAAH. 1.5 hours... #
• 20:33 slowest hour EVER. .5, we're almost there! #

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• 13:04 ah bliss... kids at library...45 minute break... #
• 13:28 NEW EPIC SAM WINCHESTER IN 31.5 HOURS!!!! #
• 13:35 argshlkjsalmfsdjmk.... i LOATHE staff meetings. ours have become sooooo pointless and looong this year. i need a gun. anyone have a gun? #

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• 08:41 caaaan... anybooody... find meeee... somebody toooo loooove! #
• 09:42 @skygazing i LOVE glee's version but WORSHIP the original #
• 12:08 wondering if a student may have dyslexia... #

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• 05:16 OMG. jensen's impression of running on a treadmill. LOLOLOLOLOL #
• 05:33 @millionsbyname what happened that he needed to do that? #
• 07:21 @millionsbyname ah I see. <3 <3 <3 them #
• 08:56 @rainnwilson today was a gaga playlist on my ride to work! #
• 12:19 @millionsbyname NAY. i've watched some snippets and YIKES. #
• 16:40 good GRACIOUS these videos will be the end of me #
• 16:54 @caithream YES. SAW THAT AND STILL HAVE YET TO RECOVER. #
• 16:54 @caithream IT'S GOING TO TAKE YEARS I TELL YOU #
• 17:54 oh help. i could listen to misha entertainment all day #

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LET THE EPIC LIVE ON.



"You were born to this."

Shorty post today. Mainly because BOYS have short circuited all brain function.

Now that PT conferences are out of the way, I can rest easy (somewhat) and handle the next week and half before HOME. OMG YOU GUYS. HOME HOME HOME. 8 more days and then I am boarding a plane to my beloved Portland. I am feeling the excitement so much I can hardly stand it. This anticipation has made my mood understandably cheerful, which only helps daily things. I am having a blast doing Thanksgiving stuff with my kiddos... today I told them the story of the first thanksgiving. I drew pictures on the board as I told it, HAHAHAHAHA. Complete with stick figures and a Mayflower that looked like a tug boat. But hey, you have to keep their attention somehow. We make grocery bag Indian vests tomorrow (all of you SOOO remember doing that!) and in a week we're having our own feast in the room. \o/ for food! THIS IS WHERE JARED AND I SEE EYE TO EYE.

Speaking of which BRAVO Chicago! I am all giggles, hearts and rainbows. As far as I'm aware, everyone behaved well, and I thought the questions were superb. YAYNESS FOR SCREENING! This makes me very optimistic for LA. Have yet to see Misha's vids, so off I go.


However, I am quite perturbed at Safeway for being out of Pumpkin Spice creamer for two days straight. It's just uncool.

• 07:25 be kind #chicon. be kind. #
• 15:27 *sigh* jared honey, you were looking so good today. cheery boy makes me cheery. #
• 18:54 @katrinjo GOOD HEAVEN AND EARTH ALMIGHTY. i... i.... #
• 19:32 @skygazing and THAT'S my talkative boy! loved it! #
• 19:34 @skygazing and I am absolutely OBSESSED with how often he say "ya'll". MMMMMMmmmm MOMMA LIKE. #
• 20:17 @caithream i want to know what comment made THAT happen #
• 21:23 wow. ok gen. mad props for flashforward. #
• 21:31 @skygazing i'm really liking it. gen's part is pretty interesting, and DOM. well yup. #
• 21:36 such a fan of this pic for many a reason: bit.ly/2C8OEs #

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• 10:34 commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. - Proverbs 16:3 #
• 15:44 @caithream never seen it, but everyone gives me rave reviews. good to rent tonight with a friend? #
• 15:48 @idril_telrunya @caithream BASICALLY MISHA IS A GQ MODEL. HAVE MERCY. #

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• 11:42 @caithream ah yes. i have several five year olds that seem to be on the Sarah track already... :) #

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• 07:15 enlightening day yesterday that will only help me in the future. now another 1/2 day... let's do it! #
• 08:51 @caithream goooooo florida! #
• 17:19 it is SO a classic rock playlist night #
• 18:40 soooo... #supernatural... are we in pain yet? 2 hours and 20 minutes left for me! #
• 19:09 @skygazing @whispered_theme hopes for this too! #
• 20:10 wants to read @caithream 's LJ post BADLY... 50 minutes #

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• 06:10 just get through today. you can do it #
• 12:09 one down! #
• 14:49 look mom, i'm doin it! 8 more to go... #
• 16:14 5 more to go... #
• 16:50 4 more to go... #
• 19:53 and DONE. i am so wiped. #

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In 12 hours, all my conferences will be over and I can breathe a bit easier.  0 down, 14 to go.  I think I can, I think I can...

• 07:20 off for observation time! #
• 10:44 kinda wish i could fast forward to when i have 15 years teaching experience under my belt... #
• 12:58 and... i have been inspired. \o/ for awesome teachers!!! #
• 18:05 @caithream SO DOABLE WHAT THE HECK #
• 20:48 low point. real low point #

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• 05:33 so i go to sleep and find out that jensen and danneel got engaged while i slumbered?! LOL. \o/ #
• 07:27 REALLY rough night... maybe slept 2 hours. i need home so badly #
• 17:40 jim and pam jim and pam jim and pam... <3 <3 <3 <3 #
• 20:58 OMG. The Office S4 gag reel KILLS ME. #

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I GET TO SLEEP IN UNTIL 6:15 TOMORROW!

It'll be nice to have a day away from the classroom in which I am not ill. I figure I will observe the Kinder rooms at Newbery till about 1 and then take off to do other things. *sigh* Something was going on last night, because I didn't sleep a wink. I tossed and turned all night, and was feeling really overwhelmed by my thoughts. My brain wasn't shutting off because of all the stress. I actually started crying from frustration and emotion at about 2 a.m., and I think finally drifted off at about 3. Ugh. Here's what it boils down to:

1. I am EXHAUSTED emotionally and physically. Today I calculated it up, including my pretty darn weekly 6 hour Sundays, and the total came to a 50+ hour work week. And I spend all of that time in my classroom. There is just insane amounts of prep to do for Kindergarten, especially when you're doing it all for the first time. And since I don't really have much of a social life to balance out the equation, I am living school 24/7. It's quite pathetic really. I desperately need to find some balance, and quick. Giving yourself a mental break is so critical in this job. I can just feel burn out creeping slowly in, which scares me. Because it's only November.
2. I need my family. Not only them, but I need my friends at home. I just miss it all so much. I still feel so alone here. Luckily I have had several families and co workers that have been gracious and taken me in so to speak, all of whom I adore spending time with. But I have never needed time at home more.

I hate to say it, but sometimes I wonder if deep down I'm really happy.  I wonder how long I'm going to stick it out here... if I'm ever going to really start a life here.  Or if the choice will be made for me to leave.  There is just so much unknown still.  The more I get a handle on this level, the more I find myself enjoying it.  However, that enjoyment is so short lived when the above 1 and 2 kick in. 

• 22:17 ramone's What a Wonderful World playing at safeway... oh dean #
• 09:49 @caithream THEY ARE SO CUTE I MAY THROW UP. :D :D :D #
• 12:02 @laraie83 oh no babe! i'm so sorry... feel better soon #
• 12:05 need more bulletin board space! #
• 13:05 ugh. i hate to get rid of golden oldie LJ icons when i've hit my max. but i <3 shiny new ones. #
• 14:19 <3 <3 <3 <3 @skygazing #
• 14:52 i'm so SICK of being at school all the time. it's driving me nuts #
• 17:12 another sunday spending 6 hours in my classroom. this pattern is a perfect recipe for burnout. #
• 19:25 hates sam haters forever and ever. WIN for possible future episode titles. #
• 20:03 @skygazing SAME HERE! #
• 20:11 THIS. GAAAAAH... WEEPY TOWN: bit.ly/1PxUJo #
• 20:26 @skygazing hold meeeee! #
• 21:04 i miss holly and michael #

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